Motivation is hard. When you are lacking it there is just no getting anything done. What I find strange about myself is at those times, I put on my big girls panties and clean the house.This seems to be the only thing I find motivation for when I am down. I think it’s because of the instant reward you get. Now its dirty, and boom after a short while its clean! Magic! If only everything else was as easy to see results in. I may also just reorganize something that is already clean (e.g. Bathroom cabinets or pantry) just to regain a sense of control over my life, through my physical environment. Note: this will also be the time I get mad when my boyfriend doesn’t clean up his mugs/ washing/ computer cables/ etc to my required level of pedantic order, as it then feels like my physical environment cannot even be controlled! Overkill? Yes! Understandable? Hopefully also yes. I crave order to feel control resulting from a lack of control in other areas of my life – eat your heart out Freud!
So, my fitness routine has completely gone down the tubes. I can’t remember the last time I went to the gym (other than to transfer my membership to my new local branch) and the clean eating has also fallen by the wayside. It requires so much planning!! I think that had I cooked it all myself and repeated the recipes when I did the 12WBT I’d at least have an arsenal of go-to clean meals, but even then I’d still have my Boyf unkeen to revisit parts of the menu! The annoying thing is I like cooking. I like experimenting with recipes and adding extra flavours, but to keep the recipes clean I need to limit this which makes it less fun to me.
I think the barrier I have about going to the gym is its several suburbs away and must be driven to in heavy traffic. If I could walk across the road to hit the gym I would, as the time it takes to get there is minimal. When I’m travelling 2 hours to get to & from work then cooking a tasty & nutritious (somewhat unclean) meal from scratch (add another hour or 2), any extra time I have I want to use relaxing with my Boyf at home or sleeping!
I declared yesterday that I want to get a cross trainer for the flat. Maybe just rent one until I know I will use it. I think this would strike out my excuses for going to the gym. There would be NO commute to get there & I can shower in my own bathroom and get dressed in my clothes without lugging a bag around with my non gym clothes. The other benefit is I will get the instant result. example:
“I feel like exercising. I’ve been so lazy lately. Well I’ll just jump on this large exercise machine in my lounge & work out. I can have dinner cooking while I work out & watch Game of Thrones on DVD!”
Seriously, the more I think about it the more I think this suits my lifestyle. I can come home. Relax for an hour. Feel lazy so jump on the cross trainer. Get sweaty. Sit down again. Feel guilty. Get on the cross trainer again. Before I know it I’ve quadrupled my activity because I can access it easily. And I genuinely believe this is how I would use it too. Sure, some days might be formal workouts with time and distance goals but mostly it would be driven by guilt over my levels of activity and the huge exercise machine taking up space in my unit!
The only minor challenge with this is that I had to sign up a new contract with my gym when I changed locations so I will need to look into cancellation fees /:
Anyhoo, I know I want to make a new routine, but I want it to be one I can stick to by myself without relying on a buddy or on a certain finishing time at work etc, as my friends are not local or into the same type of self-improvement/ discipline that I am and I work a roster that changes weekly.
I wish that the time I spent thinking about what I’d like to be doing, health and fitness-wise, counted as part of my fitness! I’d be set!!
I know willpower is a muscle, and you need to flex it regularly for it to grow stronger. I just don’t want to be in a regimented structure where it’s black or white. I want a structure which is flexible and can allow for choices other than exercise or don’t exercise. Eat clean or eat crap. Maybe I’m just making excuses.
Has anyone else struggled with this, and managed to find the right routine for you?